Some posts are hard to write...

This is one of those. Hard because it's sad, and it's true.
You may have seen my post I made about the suicide. (You can see it here) But I wanted to make another post, with some more details on what happened.


     Some things come as a shock. And when you reach those moments you don't know quite what to do. Eight days ago Rachel came into my room and by the look on her face I knew something was seriously wrong. She asked me if I could handle some really bad news. Then she told me she had just gotten off the phone with out Aunt and that Sarah, the girl we work with each year selling plants at my Aunt's house, had likely committed suicide.
     I felt like someone had punched me. Hard.
     Rachel went on to say that she had been missed for over 3 hours and there was evidence on her computer that she was planning to kill herself.
     One moment life can seem just fine. The next you can feel like your whole world just crashed in on you.
     I was awake most the night, praying and hoping.
     The next day brought the news no one wanted to hear; They found her and she had killed herself.
     For the next few days nothing seemed to matter to me. I just kept thinking about Sarah.
     Hadn't it just been a month ago I had worked with her? Never would I have guessed that was was going to commit suicide.
     She wasn't saved, nor is any of her family.
     It hurt when I heard it happen. It still hurts.In the blink of an eye your whole life can change.
     Some things come as a shock.
     Some things come as a blow.
     And some, change your life forever.
(http://www.columbian.com/news/2011/jun/28/body-found-on-round-lake-in-lacamas-park/)

Last Night

The last 2 days have been really hard for me. Someone I worked with a few times committed suicide.
I didn't know her real well. You hear about suicides on the news all the time, but when it's someone you know, even if you don't know them well, it's just...devastating and hard to even comprehend. I can't imagine what the family is going through.
She wasn't saved and none of her family are saved. Prayer for friends and family would be appreciated. 

When I have a lot on my mind I like to write...so this is a song/poem/whatever you want to call it that I wrote.

Last Night
No one suspect, no one guessed
No one took the time to ask
Where was her smile
Where was her laugh
No one knew
It was her last night

Now they're askingw hy
Now they're wishing they could change
the words they said
Go back. Show her they card.
But they didn't know
It was her last night

Don't let her be gone they cry
Bring her back somehow
If only they know
It was her last night

So tell them you love them
Show them you care
Give them a reason
To stay
Show them a light
Show them the joy
From Christ on high
Give them a reason
To Stay
Don't let this be
Their last night


Romans 12:10, "Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves."


It's hard to understand why God would let something like this happen. But he is in control. He has a purpose. A reason. And we may never understand, but his ways are not our ways nor are his thoughts, our thoughts. (Isaiah 55:8)