Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Rock Bottom

My knees contacted with rocky ground.
I fell to my face. Blood oozed from cuts on my arms.
The fall had been a long one. Every bone in my body told me so.
I vaguely remembered things I had passed during my fall.
Memories that hurt.
I tried to call for help, but my voice cracked and filled with dust.
I tried to lift myself to my feet, but no strength remained.
Why was I here? Could I get out?
Could it get worse?
A stench. My own body putting off an odor so bad I gagged.
A cry of anguish. My cry of anguish.
Somewhere from below a voice called my name.
A sickening voice.
A voice of darkness.
Could I possibly fall father towards that voice?
I shuddered.
I tried to block out the voice, but how tempting it began to sound.
I wanted to resist.
But I had no strength.
A thought crossed my mind.
A silly thought.
Why would I ever look up?
I didn't even know if I had the strength to.
But somehow, I did.
Using every ounce of energy I had left, I lifted my head and looked up.
A hand.
A hand was reaching out.
For me.
Where had that come from?
I reached out and took hold of the hand.
The voice of darkness shrieked in pain below me.
The hand held my own firmly.
A new strength filled my bones.
The hand began to pull me out.
And with every moment that passed, my strength grew.
Memories began to fade.
The only thing that mattered now was the one who's hand had helped me.
My feet touched soft grass.
I looked at my arms.
My wounds had turned to scars.
Scars I knew would heal if only I kept reaching for that hand.
Reaching for Christ.
How long had that hand been there?
Somehow I knew it had been there all along.
Patiently waiting for me to look up.
A hand that is there right now.
Reaching out towards you.
Will you look up?

     Philippians 3:12-14, "But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Even at night...

      I have insomnia. Lately I can't even fall asleep until past 1am.
      Last night after the clock hit 1:30 and I still hadn't fell asleep I opened my Bible(shoulda done it earlier) and read through a couple chapters in Psalms. One of the verses I read was Psalm 16:7-8;
     "I will praise the LORD, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I have set the LORD always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken" 
     And it just really hit me hard. "Even at night my heart instructs me." Even at night. At night when I can't sleep. A time that I have-without distractions-a time where I can listen to God.
     Of course, sometimes it's hard-because I feel like I'm half asleep. But other times I feel wide awake.
     I want even at night - my heart to instruct me about God. To be listening to God as long as I'm awake.
Morning. Noontime. Night.
     I want my thoughts to be consumed with Him.
     But I know it takes a conscious effort - one which I plan to work on. A lot. :)

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Only God...

Only God can turn a MESS - into a message, a TEST - into a testimony, a TRIAL - into a triumph and a VICTIM - into a victory.

Praise God!

Psalm 139:17-18 "How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you."

Monday, November 14, 2011

     I've been reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan. If you haven't read that book DO SO! Absolutely amazing, and yes, lifechanging book. Each chapter is convicting.
      There was one paragraph I read yesterday that I haven't been able to stop thinking about:
     "How would my life change if I actually thought of each person I came into contact with as Christ-the person driving painfully slow in front of me, the checker at the grocery store who seems more interested in chatting than ringing up my items, the member of my own family whom I can't seem to have a conversation and not get annoyed?"
     I don't know about you - but that was extremely convicting to me.
     Matthew 25: 42:-45, "For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.’
“They also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?’
“He will reply, ‘I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’"
     God commands us to love one another.  1 Peter 4:8, "Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins."
      I mean sure, we've all heard that passage, but have you REALLY thought about it and taken it to heart? If you haven't, I guarantee it will change the way you act if you start to. :) When I read this verse, I used to just think of the homeless, widowed, unborn who were the 'least of these'. But I think there's more. I think it wasn't only talking about those who are in that type of need only. It's also everyone we come in contact with.
     Think back to a moment when you got mad at a family member. Now what if that family member were the face of Christ?
     It kinda makes you look at everyone in a whole new way.
     ...Just... something to think about.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

What more do I need?

What more do I need than Christ?
Philippians 3:8-9, "What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ 9 and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ—the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith."

Nothing more. 

Sunday, November 6, 2011

It's a new day

"Every dog has his day."
We've all heard that quote. But what if you could determine how your day was going to go? At least to a certain extent...
If we start each morning by turning towards Christ I can almost guarantee your day will go better. 
The last few mornings I've been starting by day by 1.)Prayer 2.)Reading my bible 3.)Turning my ipod onto my 'worship' music playlist. And each day I've felt closer to Christ and have been able to get through the day praising God, regardless if my day is not going 'how I want it to'. 

Don't get me wrong, I'm not making a statement and saying, "If you seek Christ in the morning your day will go well." Not at all. BUT we are commanded to continually seek Christ ("Rejoice always; pray without ceasing; in everything give thanks, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18). And why not start off our day in the right way? 
I've found my day goes a hundred times better-mainly because of the fact I am focused on Christ. 

So take the time each morning.
Start out your day in pray and God's word.

And you'll find yourself closer to God each day and filled with His joy each day.

Start your day with the right mindset - it will affect your whole day.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Repost: Just As I Am

Very powerful song.

Dear Lord, on my knees again/I come to you because you understand
I've tried so hard/But I just can't change myself/That's why I know I need Your help
So here I am /This is my plea/My only hope is Your love for me
I'm reaching out so desperately/Come and take my hand/Take all of me
Oh Lord, take what's broken/Why can't i just learn to follow you
I want to know you/To feel you in my soul/I surrender control
So here I am/This is my plea/My only hope is your love for me
I'm reaching out so desperately/Come take my hand/Take all of me
Just as I am not afraid to follow you where you lead me
I can leave the past behind/So here I am/Take all of me"

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Sadly...it's true.

Another photo! Though this is a 'cute comic' or whatever you want to call it...it's sadly very true.
How often do we wonder why we aren't close to God...when we aren't listening for Him? When we aren't reading His word?
Take the time. Listen to God.
Get away from distractions if you have to.
Whatever it takes.
Spend time with God.