Monday, February 28, 2011

Happy? Me? Yup! :)

The day my parents had a family meeting and told us kids that we were changing Churches was one of the hardest days of my life.
We had attended our previous Church for 11 years. I have been 5 when we started going. 90% of my friends went there. My best friends.
I felt resentful, angry, depressed. Why did we have to change Churches?
I don't see my friends very often any more, really I rarely ever see them. And it's not easy. I miss them...a lot. But you know, God is so amazing!
When we first switched I didn't think I could survive with not seeing my friends, but God opened up my eyes. He gave me a new love, stronger then any friendships. A love for my family. I LOVE my family. I feel overwhelmingly blessed to have my family. I love being around them. I hanging out at home and just playing a game with my siblings. I love sitting down and watched a movie with my family. ...Before I just always wanted to get out of the house.
It's been a year since we switched Churches...honestly it feels like a month. Sure I still miss my friends, but I've grown to love my family and to really enjoy hanging out and playing games with the younger kids at our new Church.
God has really been working in my life, and switching Churches has changed so much. My life really isn't anything like it used to be. But I am happier now then I have ever been.
I've grown closer to my family and closer in my walk with God.
I am happy. I am truly happy. :)
Isaiah 41:10 - "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

Most of you have probably heard the song by Josh Groban, You Raise Me Up. I think that song really fits what I've gone through and what I've felt. I felt like I'd hit rock bottom...but God was there. He had always been there. And with his mercy and grace he helped me to get back up again.

You Raise Me Up - Josh Groban
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

What Are You Hiding?

I just added my dad to my chat list.
How weird is that???
You know, the first thought that ran through my mind when I added him was "oh no! He's gunna see all my status messages!" then the next thought was "oh wait. I have nothing to hide!"
Can you say that?
Would you be able to show your parents all your gmail statuses? How about your Facebook status? How about your emails? Texts?
Would you be able to show your parents?

If your answer is no...then I think you have some serious thinking to do.
If you wouldn't be able to show those things, that means you're hiding it. Why? Probably because you're thinking they won't approve.
So if they wouldn't approve why would you be saying those things in the first place???
It's disrespectful and disobedient to your parents.
If you can't let your parents see even your status on gmail then I would say you likely aren't responsible to have that account.
Seriously. This may all sound super lame and stupid. But i'm complete sincere about this...
Can you show your parents your online life?
I hope your answer is yes, I really do.

When I was 12 I used to go online and play virtual reality that bad? No not in and of itself (though it IS a waste of time!) but what I WAS doing wrong was the fact I was doing it in secret. I knew I wasn't allowed to be doing that online. But I did it...for almost a year, without my parents ever knowing. I tried to tell myself it was fine, but inside I knew it wasn't. Around that same time is when I rededicated my life to the Lord, and not long after I began seriously feeling terrible for what I was doing. I was hiding something I knew was wrong. So one day I went in, closed all my accounts then went and told my mom what I had done. It was probably the hardest thing I had ever dome at that time. I felt so ashamed. But the relief and peace that swept over me after I told her was...amazing. My mom is wonderful. She was extremely loving and extremely gracious. I didn't even get in trouble! I was shocked. My mom just told me how thankful she was that I came and told her. I am SO glad I came out and confessed(and stopped doing it!).
Now playing virtual reality games online is a little different then what you post on fb and email, etc. But it's the same idea....then I was doing something I didn't want my parents to see me doing.

Are you hiding something? If your parents were sitting behind you while you were at the computer, would you try to avoid what your normally do or say online?

I am VERY happy to say that having my dad on my chat list is awesome(even if it does seem weird!).
And if my dad wanted to read my emails...I have nothing to hide there either.
I am so glad I learned at a younger age not to do things behind my parents backs.
I have nothing to hide.
I hope you can say the same.
Just something to think about...

Romans 13:1-7, "Let every person be subject to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and those that exist have been instituted by God. Therefore whoever resists the authorities resists what God has appointed, and those who resist will incur judgment. For rulers are not a terror to good conduct, but to bad. Would you have no fear of the one who is in authority? Then do what is good, and you will receive his approval, for he is God's servant for your good. But if you do wrong, be afraid, for he does not bear the sword in vain. For he is the servant of God, an avenger who carries out God's wrath on the wrongdoer. Therefore one must be in subjection, not only to avoid God's wrath but also for the sake of conscience."

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

I Surrender

How you surrendered ALL to Jesus? I'm not talking about just accepting Him into your heart and living for Him...I'm asking have you laid EVERYTHING?
Part of accepting Christ is giving Him everything.
Have you laid your family, friendships, everything at the feet of Christ?
If you haven't, it's time to do so. :)
Are you holding back the stuff of this world?
<---- Are you holding onto the things in this life that won't last?
Or are you turning to Christ, giving up the things of this world, surrendering your all in all at His throne?
Will you be able to praise God even when he takes something away from you?

Hebrews 12:1-3, "Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart."

I've found the best way for me to express my emotions is through writing. Typically in a song.
The other day I wrote this song.

I Surrender

Lord you give and take away
Blessed be your name
At your throne Lord Jesus
I lay all I have

I surrender to the maker
I surrender to the healer
I surrender to the Lord of All
Lord I surrender all to you

All I've held back oh God
I lay at your feet
In my life I give it all to you
The one who gives and takes away

I surrender to Christ above
I surrender to my Lord Jesus
I surrender to the one who gives
Lord I surrender to the one who takes away
I surrender all to you

I  have seen pain oh God
But your loving arms are there
So I give it all to you
holding nothing back Lord Jesus

Because I surrender to you
I surrender
I surrender all to you
I surrender

Thursday, February 17, 2011

I'm studying purple penguins! Or was that green hippos?

Lately I've been studying for a CLEP...I really hate studying.
I mean more then dislike it. I can't stand it! It's like...torture.
This is typically what my text starts to look like after a few hours:

The philosophy of William James, pragmatism, and the theory of evolution proposed by Charles Messed-Up dude contributed to the development of functionalism. Pragmatism(better known to me as djflaksdjfal;jaiosdfism) requires that theories be tested and that the result have some practical use such as frying frogs for supper. The ideas suggested that not only the functions of the mind be shot and killed beyond repair, but also that the differences between polka-dotted penguins be observed. That way when your brain has reached it full capacity of information it will explode and nothing will make sense just as there is a chicken flying in your room and an ostrich sitting on your desk wearing a purple tie. So eat desks with guitars swimming in photos muddy pie movie studies across Fiji dfjlkae fdalj tig asdfjl.

You can see my mind stops comprehending what each word says....
And this is what I feel like:

But yet I press on and WILL defeat this CLEP! And have a great victory dance afterward. Ohk maybe not....

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

The God of the Heavens and the Earth - made YOU!

So last night I was planning on getting to bed on time for once. ....It all worked out fine, until I looked out the window.
The clouds and the moon looked absolutely stunning. And try as I might, I couldn't resist getting my camera out and taking some video/photos.
I lay on my back in the dark, in the cold, on our rather wet porch holding my camera up towards the sky.
I was overwhelmed with how beautiful the sky was! Cold as I was, I stayed out there for at least fifteen minutes.
The thought that God created this. He formed each and every cloud...just took my breath away.
You can't look at the beauty of the rapidly moving clouds across the moon and not think about an omniscient, omnipresent and omnipotent God who created it.
I can't describe or even begin to describe how awesome God is. How amazing his creation is.
A God who created the sun, the moon and earth, how much more has he created you? Created you just as he wanted. No part of you is a mistake or a mess up. Frizzy hair? Hey! He gave you that! (As weird as it seems!) God created you specially and he loves you.
So don't blow it off by trying to make yourself something you aren't.
What if the sky wasn't happy with how it looked? What if it wanted to be green instead of blue? Ok, ya I know that's a little over the top idea...but do you see what I'm trying to say?
I am overwhelmed with God's power and love. Even this morning, as I look outside and see the snow falling. As much as I don't really care for snow, it's absolutely beautiful.
Psalm 139:13, "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well."

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Who Am I?

Who Am I?

I am nothing
I am a wretched sinner
I am a liar
I am a thief
I am worthless
I am a human with no purpose
I am dead in my sins
I am drifting through life without reason
I am in darkness
I am condemned
I am blind
I am a fool

This is who I am without Christ.
Colassians 1:13-14, "For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, 14 in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins."

Without Him I am nothing. With Him I am been redeemed! I have been made new!
I am a child of God.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011


I love my little bro. :)
Sonia interviewed him for the most part. He is like...amazing. So cute! You can't listen without smiling. :)

Monday, February 7, 2011

Stop Complaing

One of my pet peeves is when people complain about life.
When they complain about what they don't have.

We, each and every one of us, from whatever background we come from, we have been given soo much! We have NO excuse to complain. We have NO excuse to be ungrateful.
We have EVERY reason to be thankful. We have EVERY reason to feel overwhelmed with how much we have been blessed with.
This is a really powerful video, I seen it numerous times at numerous different places and each time it speaks to me.

Hebrews 12: 1-2 - “…and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,
looking to JESUS the author and finisher of our faith;
who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross,
despising th shame, and is set down at the right hand
of the throne of GOD.”

I don't want to hear you complaining about life.
I want to hear you giving thanks to Christ for how much he has given you.
I want to see you using what Christ has given you to glorify Him.
Nick Vujicic is an excellent example for all of us.

Stop Complaining.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Wow. Where did time go

I have this album called 'OLD' in my pictures folder. It's filled with hundreds of old photos. But yet I look back and it seems like just yesterday. 
I cannot believe how fast time has gone by! Life really does fly by and it really is over before you know it. :) So let's not let a day pass where we don't show the ones around us we love them. :) Let's not let a day pass where we don't strive to honor God in EVERYTHING.
You don't want to look back a few years from now and say "I wish I told my family I loved them. I wish I had treasured that time with them." You want to be able to look back and say, "I am SO glad I didn't pass that time up." :)
Anywho...I thought I'd post some pics from my life...forever ago. :)

Age 10 with my wonderful sis. :) (back when she was taller then me. haha)
Age 11 I think?

Hiking at this SUPER awesome place up at Cougar. :)

Mason and I. Woah....I think I was 11 or 12
Woah. So long ago. We were buddies. <3

We had way too much fun. Age 12?

Sarah, Aubrey, Jenne and I. We were so little!!!

My family now. :)

 I love my family so incredibly much!!! And I don't want to pass up one minute I have to spend with them! Even right now I can't believe how fast my lil bros are getting older!
The last picture (if you didn't see the caption) is our most recent family pic from last Dec. :) Boy do I love my family. I can't believe how much has changed since even last year!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

So It's February - And the mountains keep coming

 Wow. February 1st 2011.
Two years ago this date seemed so far ahead.
Now it's here.
It's crazy how fast life goes by. It's true what they say, life is over before you know it. I'm starting to see how fast it goes by...and I'm only 17! I can't imagine how it's gunna be when I'm haha ;)
So often we want so much just to get through with the day, but it feels like we're stuck. We're stuck staring at this huge mountain we have to overcome.
So often we find ourselves in conflict with family or friends.
And how often do we keep putting it off? Put it off for another day?
You don't want to deal with working out your issues with your sibling or parent. We don't want to do things that are hard. Things that aren't fun.
We just want to live for ourselves. To pack as much fun in as we can.
But where does that get us? That mountain is still there the next day. And the more you put it off, the more it seems to grow.
Life isn't about serving ourselves. It's about serving God. Doing His will. Trusting in Him.
Now I'm not saying that we aren't allowed to enjoy life. Nope, that's not what I'm saying at all!
I'm saying that we should find joy in honoring Christ. When we serve Him wholeheartedly we will be filled with an unbelievable joy.
When we leave conflict unresolved, it grows. We aren't serving Christ. We serving ourselves. Maybe you don't want to sort it out with that person, because you're afraid of what they'll think. Maybe you don't see any wrong in yourself. That when they are ready to talk it through, they'll come to you. No, Christ calls us to love one another. To serve others above ourselves. Part of that is not living with resentment or anger. If there's strife between someone, work it out. Pray about it. Don't let that mountain grow.
Ephesians 4:26-27, “In your anger do not sin”: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, 27 and do not give the devil a foothold" That verse says it so clearly. "Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry" If you have unresolved conflict between someone, don't just put it off. If you can't work it out with that person, and if you're upset at them for some reason, don't let the bitterness. Forgive them. Pray about it. God will give you strength to let go of any anger. Don't let the devil sneak in. Don't let that mountain grow.
If you can work it out, DO IT! Go talk to that person. But with humility and love.
With God's help you can overcome that mountain. :)

(Btw isn't my bro adorable???) ^_^