to ponder...

To ponder all my tears in life
has left me beat and worn
But through it all
I've learned to stand
upon the strength of God
For I myself, I cannot bare
the sorrow of this world
But in His grace alone I stand
And praise Him evermore

You would think...

You would think

the more loss you see,

the easier it would be

You would think

the more pain you feel

the more you will to heal

You would think...

but you would think wrong

Each loss

Holds the same pain as before

Except now

A new addition that hurts all the more

Tears

 that never run dry
Strength

fading as the days go by

Until

your strength has run dry

You stop

even asking why.

God, please grant me strength not from myself nor for myself

But grant me the ability to rest upon your strength

in order that I may praise Your holy name

How I long to be where there is no pain

How I long to go to my eternal home

But I know I am here for a reason

So please, God, give me the strength to continue on

With a song in my heart

To shine Your light

Though my heart grows weary

Though I lose the will to go on

Though You take all I have loved

Even when the tears won't stop

please give me the strength

to raise my hands

and say

'Blessed be, the God who gives

and who takes away'

To Sit Upon a Moutain

To sit upon that mountain high

The valley far below

The breeze whispering softly to me

The music of the world

To spread my arms out wide

And feel the open air

To shut my eyes and listen

To the sound God's creation

Then open them wide

And take a deep breath

To witness that creation

So beautiful

So majestic

On that mountain

Is where I want to be

For on top of that mountain

It is as if

The whole world

Lies under me