Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Some posts are hard to write...

This is one of those. Hard because it's sad, and it's true.
You may have seen my post I made about the suicide. (You can see it here) But I wanted to make another post, with some more details on what happened.

     Some things come as a shock. And when you reach those moments you don't know quite what to do. Eight days ago Rachel came into my room and by the look on her face I knew something was seriously wrong. She asked me if I could handle some really bad news. Then she told me she had just gotten off the phone with out Aunt and that Sarah, the girl we work with each year selling plants at my Aunt's house, had likely committed suicide.
     I felt like someone had punched me. Hard.
     Rachel went on to say that she had been missed for over 3 hours and there was evidence on her computer that she was planning to kill herself.
     One moment life can seem just fine. The next you can feel like your whole world just crashed in on you.
     I was awake most the night, praying and hoping.
     The next day brought the news no one wanted to hear; They found her and she had killed herself.
     For the next few days nothing seemed to matter to me. I just kept thinking about Sarah.
     Hadn't it just been a month ago I had worked with her? Never would I have guessed that was was going to commit suicide.
     She wasn't saved, nor is any of her family.
     It hurt when I heard it happen. It still hurts.In the blink of an eye your whole life can change.
     Some things come as a shock.
     Some things come as a blow.
     And some, change your life forever.


  1. Clari... I'm so sorry. I'll keep you and Sarah's family in my prayers.

    God Bless.

  2. Oh wow, I am so sorry to hear that Clari...I don't really know what I can say other than I am praying for you and Sarah's family. I know what it's like to lose someone to suicide...I wish I could give you a great big hug right now! <3