Awhile back, I posted about my friend, Josh, who drowned.
Not.one.day goes by when I don't think about him or have something remind me of him. And sometimes the pain that follows hurts just as much as it did a month ago.
I don't think that's ever going to change. For the rest of my life, however long God has for me, things will always remind me of Josh and there will always be moments of intense pain because he's gone.
The initial pain of losing someone is hard. But in a weird sort of way, it kinda hurts more with the more time that passes.
It's kinda like a good friend you haven't seen in a long time. If you don't see them for a week, you miss them...but if you don't see them for a whole month-you miss them a whole lot more.
But there's also that feeling of knowing God had this planned from the beginning of time. Every time I think of Josh, that thought comes along with it. It's just right that Josh is gone. It's hard to say that is happened at a perfect time, because that just sounds so...wrong. But it's true. God took Josh up to be with Him on His timing...you can't get a more perfect timing then that.
Understanding God's timing is often one of the biggest challenges for us as Christians.
God's timing is SO perfect. He has planned the timing for billions of people...when they will be born, when they will get married, when they will get a job...when they will die. And he has worked them all together, so that some interact and come together, putting the right people in the place at the right time. That is...an insane thought. Can you imagine planning that many lives? Putting them together? We serve such a powerful God-outside of time-omniscient, omnipresent, omnipotent... all-powerful. Who has everything perfectly planned to happen in His perfect timing and His perfect and holy will.
God brought Josh into this world in His perfect timing and He took him out of this world in His perfect timing.
I'm so thankful that God worked into His holy will and plan to let me get to know Josh. God brought Josh into a lot of people's lives-He had is ALL planned. Every.single.person Josh came in contact with...God had it planned.
Even right now, typing this...I am in awe. God's power is far far beyond human comprehension. The more I seek to understand God, the more I learn just how much more powerful He is then me. I don't even compare. It's...amazing, humbling and yet another reason to praise the Lord of yesterday, today and forever.
I miss Josh. I always will. But I'm thankful and praise God for His timing in Josh's life. And I thank God that this goodbye is only temporary.
Song dedicated to Josh: http://arielstrom.bandcamp.com/
Josh's fb page: https://www.facebook.com/JoshuaSEddy
Some really touching blog posts by others: